[Your] Love is so Past Tense

Huge headache... my mind is sooo sooo far away then i hear...

You'll never see me trying
To love you once again.... Your love is so past tense..

And the words were actually soothing.. I must have heard that song a hundred times but this time i actually listen to it. It got me thinking about how far people go for what we think is love... i have to say it: Way too far ahead of ourselves.. and it happens.. i mean.. what's not to like about that sensation of being "liked" or "loved"... or the simple feeling of being confortable with somebody, a steady somebody who, you think, would be there for you anytime.... Well, this is where reality comes in and throws away that idilic train of thoughts..

Talking for my own experience i can say you even see thinks where they don't even exist.. you want so much that everything stays perfect that you forget to mend things on the way.. you just overlook 'em and at the end it all comes back to bite your back. Yes. . they do.. and it hurts.. an awful lot..

For now.. after some ups and downs i came around this idea.. The best thing for me right now is to just lock away my heart and don't let anybody come close. That's the goal.. i don't want to get hurt or to hurt someone else again.. i just can't do that one more time.. So.. from this moment on i'll try my best to live my life to the fullest and just let love* in the past.

*Love as in romantic love..